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So im sitting in this meeting
And im thinking about my feelings
And how i feel like kinda wanna
Kill that person speaking
Cause i dont like the way theyre talking
And i dont like the way theyre smiling
And they say that they are happy
But i feel like they are lying
Cause inside i feel like dying
Yea i really wanna die
And id rather go and kill you before i have to kill myself
And i have no one to blame for that cause im just fuking immature
And my problems are self made like amish furniture

Please tell me theres something more to this
Than drinking coffee and smoking cigarettes
Reading all the same old shit
Sitting around and talking about it
Cause if thats the case then im at the brink
Of losing all my patience
With all of these middle class kids with homeless aspirations

Go out and make something of yourself
Instead of going in and out of the recovery house
And if stepwork was a race
Id be living it up here in last place
So dont get up in my face when i see you at pearl street with your boo love*
And dont you dare say that youre clean & sober one more time cause alcohols a drug**
SAY WHAT!

So you tell me that i gotta drink the kool aid*** to live
But i dont fucking believe you i dont fucking believe you
And ill tell you if i had any fight left to give
I would up and leave you i would up and leave you
So you tell me that i gotta drink the kool aid*** to live
But i dont fucking believe you i dont fucking believe you
And im complaining cause you know that i dont like to admit
That i fucking need you yea i fucking need you !

*this line is a reference to an AA meeting in my area that is notorious for young kids looking to hook up w/ each other
** NA literature says they dont use the word sober because alcohol qualifies as a drug, so saying you are “clean” is sufficient. I used to be a really hardcore NA purist and would get all upset if people used the term “clean and sober” b/c I thought it demonstrated their lack of knowledge in the program and quite frankly I was an elitist asshole when I first got into recovery.
*** this is a joke about 12 step programs being cult-like

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from All I did this summer was go to rehab, track released April 1, 2015
back up vocals erica and rachel

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