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This one was also written in 2016 right after that summer tour. I remember being hella depressed and finding it hard to find motivation to do anything. It was a combination of yearning to be back on the road and having an existential crisis about the state of the world with global warming and all the other atrocities we were and still are dealing with. It was all weighing on me heavily. Friends were ODing left and right. Almost 4 years later not much is different. I was shocked at how relevant the first 2 verses were to these weird pandemic times we are living in.

The bridge part was definitely inspired by Sledding with Tigers. I had been listening to them a lot at the time and they have a lot of songs that are just simple motivational kind of mantras. The instrumental breakdown part is very "A Day to Remember" of me.

This song never turned into anything, except the chorus ended up becoming part of Fun & Games.

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The hardest thing I did today was get up off the couch
the second hardest thing I did was say that out loud
I close my eyes and open them and wish that it would change anything but it’s still just the same old same old
and the more I watch the television the more I start to hate everything
and the more time I spend In this house alone the less I feel like a person

we all have our bad days but this is been a few bad months
every time I open Facebook up another friend is gone
I close my eyes and open them I wish I could forget it Oh I wish they would just get it wish my friends would just get it
And if I had one thing that I could say to you it would be that I am sorry
but I can only be myself to fall in for that I’m not sorry

just because you’ve done some bad things doesn’t make you a bad person you are not the summation of all of your past actions just because some bad things happen doesn’t mean that you deserve them just because you’ve done some bad things doesn’t make you a bad person

and if I had one thing that I could say to you it would be that I am sorry but I can only be myself to a fault and for that I’m not sorry

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from it's amazing how much has changed, and how much hasn't (demos 2016​-​2017), released October 2, 2020

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