Pipe Dream

by Apes of the State

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dudgrickbevins The. Best. Tape. I’ve. Bought. Off. Bandcamp. Period.

I haven’t felt this alive since I was sixteen and discover Ani DiFranco’s “Not a Pretty Girl,” then not again until Paul Baribeau’s “Grand Ledge.” It’s raw punk folk gospel madness.

Tracks 1/5/7/9 are my favorite — but also 10 and every other song. Christ Christ Christ. Favorite track: Fight Song.
ren
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ren I love the raw mixing and the lyricism happens to be dripping with the sarcastic wit you've come to expect from folk punk and the very personal feeling of the album is complimented by the final track "Dear Mom". A definite must listen for aspiring artists everywhere. Favorite track: Internet Song.
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danielgerken You can feel the raw emotion in everyone song. The delivery of the vocals is earnest and genuine which matches perfectly with the unpolished sound of her voice. I connected with the band's energy immediately. It will be an album I come back to time and time again. Favorite track: Moments a Year From Now.
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    A shitty tattoo design sheet featuring references to our songs off of "This City Isn't Big Enough" & "Pipe Dream," hand drawn by April. You will get a high quality 8.5x11 print-ready file delivered to your email, ready to take to your favorite tattoo artist or stick & poker. Note that this is listed as a "vinyl" but it is not, don't worry about that.

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    You get an elusive yellow Pipe Dream vinyl (definitively the last copies of these that exist for sale ! ) along with a custom made lyric sheet by Apes. Photo is an example, each will be completely unique ! You pick the song off of Pipe Dream - make sure you write it as a note when you place your order. And if you want it made out to a specific name please specify. Only 20 are being released and will be numbered. The vinyl sleeve will also be signed by the whole band.

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    Because these are made to order they will take a little longer than usual for me to ship. I'm going to be releasing them in chunks of 5 at a time to keep the orders manageable. Make sure you are subscibed to our notifications on Bandcamp so you know when we drop them. I'll also post on all of our social media accounts.

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    I will pet Pebbles & Banjo and make sure I tell her them it is from you. You will get a personalized photo of them & a thank you note via email. Note that this is listed as a "vinyl" but it is not, don't worry about that.

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1.
Snowflake 01:27
I’m not a special snowflake but if everybody looked and acted this way it would start to lose its charm There’s a reason that we find our friends in dirty basement punk rock shows and not everyday walking down the sidewalk So they might call us freaks or say we should act our age But all my friends are beautiful and I hope they never ever change And some of us might trade this angst and youth in for a 9 to 5, commute Start a family, i’m not judging I hope we’re happy And we will buy our children punk Cds and tell them they can live their dreams Grow up to be whatever it is that they wanna be And if anyone calls them freaks we’ll say That freaks are fucking beautiful and we wouldn’t love them any other way
2.
Better Off 01:56
If I could find the strength to leave my house I might be reassured that the whole world isn’t burning to the ground outside my door But it’s been so long since anything has gone as expected that i’ve learned to stop having any expectations And if everything went as expected i wouldn’t be half the person that I am So I might be better off, that my better half is dead Part of me wants to believe that everything is exactly as it seems but I’ve found so much comfort in complacency and denying my reality That I don’t wanna know who the president is I fell asleep before the votes were counted I’d rather stay asleep and dream of a world where we don’t need them Cause we might be better off, we might be better off, we might be better off without them If I could find the strength to leave my house I might be reassured that the whole world isn’t coming to an end outside my door But it might be better off, it might be better off, it might be better off if that were the case
3.
T-Shirt 01:36
You broke my heart and all I got Was this lousy t-shirt and it doesn’t even fit me anymore Yea i’ve been sorting through my inventory, airing out my dirty laundry and i got too many pieces of you taking up room in my drawers You broke my heart and all I got Was this lousy t-shirt of a band that i don’t even care for anymore Yeah I’ve been looking at old photographs, throwing your stuff in the trash I think it’s safe to say that you’re the worst outfit that i ever wore And you don’t have an excuse for how you acted, so I don’t wanna talk about it baby I’m so over it And everything was great while it lasted, but I don’t wanna hear you out, let’s just end this beautiful disaster, right now You broke my heart and all I got Was this lousy t-shirt and it doesn’t even fit me anymore Yea i’ve been sorting through my inventory, airing out my dirty laundry and i got too many pieces of you taking up room in my drawers You broke my heart and all I got Was this lousy t-shirt of a band that i don’t even care for anymore Yeah I’ve been looking at old photographs, throwing your stuff in the trash I think it’s safe to say that you’re the worst outfit that i ever wore
4.
Gather round kids I'll tell you all some stories of what life was like before the internet we wandered round our neighborhoods aimlessly lighting things on fire and smoking cigarettes and your dad probably tried pot if he said he didn't then he is a liar he met your mom when she was passed out on the floor at a party and that's why they don't let you outside Oh gather round kids I'll tell you all some stories of what it was like before Facebook ruined everything we went to concerts to watch the performers not staring at a livestream on our cell phone screens we did nice things for eachother without posting about it on our status we got in fights and beat the crap out of eachother with our fists instead of through nasty comments Gather round kids I'll tell you all some stories of what it was like before Instagram ruined pictures we used cameras and got the film developed and people couldn't even hide behind filters now your dad is looking at porn on Tumblr and your mom is cheating on your dad through Tindr swipe right does anyone remember the days when we used to like to go outside? Gather round kids I'll tell you all some stories of what life was like before the internet we wandered round our neighborhoods aimlessly lighting things on fire and smoking cigarettes and your dad took a bunch of acid met your mom and they cut all of their classes went to a party and conceived you on the floor and that’s why they don't let you outside anymore yea that’s why we don't let kids outside
5.
Sometimes I wonder What I’m doing at this moment That I’ll be cringing at a year from now When I think about it Like getting tattooed Or something less permanent Like the color of my shoes Or the people I’ve been hanging with And I might never get over it I’ll just get so much better at living with my shit And we don’t forget anything We just lose the ability to access it in our brains Sometimes the answers To everything I’ve ever wondered About life and death And what comes after Come to me as I lie between Being awake and falling asleep So if I zone out While you’re talking to me It doesn’t mean that I’m not listening I’m just caught up in a moment I have a tendency to get lost in the irrelevant details of the story Like the color that your shoes were the day you walked away from me And we might never get over it We’ll just get so much better at living in our shit And we don’t forget anything We just lose our desires to relive the memories Sometimes the answers To everything I’ve ever wondered About life and death And what comes after Come to me as I fall asleep But they’re gone by the morning And I wonder What I’m doing at this moment That I’ll be cringing at a year from now When I think about it
6.
Tyrone 03:02
For the third night this week, I’ve been awoken by dreams That my ceiling is cracking, and falling on me Every house holds the story of the things it has seen If these walls could talk, they’d probably scream This city was abandoned when they closed the factories The buildings were left vacant and decaying in the streets Every town holds the story of what it used to be If these sidewalks could walk, they’d probably leave We left it all in god’s hands, all in gods hands All in god’s hands, all in gods hands, we left it all in gods hands and he failed us again We left it all in god’s hands, all in gods hands All in god’s hands, all in gods hands, we left it all in gods hands and he failed us again
7.
Toothache 03:37
You’re so sweet you hurt my teeth when I bite down, bite down And it’s not right but it hurts so good for right now, right now But you’re always right so we’re gonna have a fight now, right now Yeah you’re always RIGHT! Hows it feel to be so right? Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this And I’ll hide my feelings, say I don’t feel anything But we both know I’m lying, I feel everything at once Fell so hard must have hit my head on the way down, way down Cause otherwise there’s not way I’d tolerate all the bullshit that you spew from your mouth We can both be so mean when we want to so why don’t we let go and let it all out? I will tear down the walls of this house if I have to and you have the nerve to say that I should be more nice Well I think you should take your own advice since you’re always RIGHT And you met your match cause so am I !! Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this And I’ll hide my feelings, say I don’t feel anything But we both know I’m lying, I feel everything at once Singer 1: Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this Singer 2: You’re like the middle of my back where I can’t reach I can’t scratch you off so you’re always part of me Won’t you get up off my back, yea you’re always on my... middle of my back where I can’t reach I can’t scratch you off so you’re always part of me (Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this) Just because you’re feeling low, makes you think I’m talking down Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this And I’ll hide my feelings, say I don’t feel anything But we both know I’m lying, I feel everything at once, I feel everything at once, I feel everything You’re so sweet you hurt my teeth
8.
Fight Song 01:06
Sorry that I haven’t called you back I’ve been busy trying not to lose my shit Lose my mind And I’m sorry that I never answer texts It doesn’t mean that you aren’t still my friend On my mind Reaching out for help is so hard When you’ve relied on yourself for so long Reaching out for help is so hard When you’ve relied on yourself for so long Sorry that I haven’t called you back I’ve been busy trying not to lose my shit Lose my mind And I’m sorry that I never answer texts It doesn’t mean that you aren’t still my friend On my mind *All of my friends are the strongest people I’ve ever met *All of my friends are the strongest people I’ve ever met Sorry that I haven’t called you back I’ve been busy trying not to lose my shit Lose my mind And I’m sorry that I never answer texts It doesn’t mean that you aren’t still my friend On my mind *All of my friends are the strongest people I’ve ever met
9.
Piles 02:44
I don’t know too much about art but I think that you are it I wanna hang you on a wall inside my house and look at you , think about you show you off to all my friends And I won’t use flash when I take a picture of your face Cause I don’t want you to fade I don’t want you to fade I’ll put you in a frame Your eyes are green like when the leaves start to dry I wanna crunch you underneath of my feet, sweep you into piles in my yard to jump inside And I’ll build a fence around my yard so when the wind comes you don’t blow away You don’t blow away Cause I want you to stay I want you to stay I stole your t-shirt and it fits me just right, I swear you are my size I swear you are my size I wanna keep you on me all the time and when I’m done with you I’ll throw you into a pile on the floor of my bedroom I wanna wear you like an outfit from my head to my toes I wanna wake up in your bed I wanna wake up in your bed I wanna wake up in your bed and steal your clothes I wanna wake up in your bed I wanna wake up in your bed I wanna wake up in your bed and steal your clothes
10.
So I tried to erase you number, but then I thought and I uncovered more things that I had to say to you more ways to tell you, how much I love you and that I miss you So I tried to erase your number, but then I thought and I uncovered more things that I need to say I'm sorry for so I told you that once more So I tried to erase your number, but I can't help feeling like this isn't over and the more time and space I have, the more that I think that you'll probably never answer So I finally erased your number and it didn't help me feel any better so while I sit and wait for you to call I wrote you a song
11.
Fun & Games 06:00
You told me once That you never say you’re sorry Cause if you never apologize then it means you're never wrong Well I’ll tell you what I see the flaws in your logic And you're wrong whether you like to admit it or not Your biggest flaw Is believing that you have none We are only human you are not an exception to the rules And rules were meant to be broken But I don't see the benefits in leaving things unspoken So if I had one thing that I could say to you It would be that I am sorry But I can only be myself to a fault And for that I’m not sorry My biggest flaw Is believing that I have too many It's like the weight of the world is crashing down on top of me I can't breathe Barely make it out of bed some days But saying that out loud Is the first step towards changing Everything that I hold true and believe in Is subject to revision faced with new information Still I cling To old habits and self loathing To numb the pain of knowing I’m the source of all my problems and I Put things off until it’s way too late to fix them Can’t seem to help it procrastinations so addictive This was all fun and games until I tore down everything x3 That held me back To all the kids Who are beaten down and hopeless Forced to live in this society that we believe is broken I hope you know That you are not alone in this We’ve built a scene on tolerance and it’s far from perfect But can we try To see past all our differences Even those who we believe are wrong? To look them in the eyes And forgive them for their flaws Cause they are only human after all And the only thing I don’t want you to do Is ever apologize for being you Some things you just can’t change And I’ve seen too many of my friends Drink or drug themselves to death To numb the pain of knowing we got ourselves into this mess Where in this day and age we still need things like safe spaces Because people still can’t tolerate people who are different And the way our system works Is destroying our planet And the human race might drive itself extinct before we get it Cause we Put things off until it’s way too late to fix them Can’t seem to help it procrastinations so addictive And it’s easier said than done That we’ll get it it tomorrow when tomorrow might never ever come This is all fun and games until we tear down everything x3 That keeps us all from loving ourselves This is all fun and games until we tear down everything x3 That holds us back
12.
Dear Mom 09:11
Dear mom, it’s not a phase I’ve been dressing the same way every day since the 5th grade and I still listen to all of the same punk rock bands that I did back then Dear mom, I even started my own punk rock band We spend the summers travelling I think we’re doing okay, we got 20 likes just yesterday on our Facebook page Dear dad, quit telling me to act my age To get a job and a house and a 401-k my band is doing great, we made 20 bucks, just yesterday on our Bandcamp page On days when I wake up like this, reliving every moment, of every wrong thing that I ever did I tell myself don’t worry bout the little things cause little stuff is all it is and everything’s impermanent Dear dad, I know that she looked just like me And I’ve always been so wild and free and fun That’s why I am your favorite, even though I’ve always been a screw up Dear sister, I wish you didn’t work so much I guess that’s how you deal with stuff, we’ve both been through a lot, thanks for always being there for me every time i screw up Dear world, I don’t wanna die young I just wanna have fun I think that if all of us could stop arguing about politics and little things we’d solve all of our problems So I will write a song to sing for all the art school dropout kids whose dreams were bigger than their pockets And it will go like this, don’t worry bout the little things cause little stuff is all it is I promise, nobody is perfect Dear boyfriend, you asked me how I got so great and I told you that I stopped being afraid I wish you’d stop being so afraid Dear stranger, you asked if I could spare some change, you didn’t look so great, you had death in your face, please forgive me for looking the other way Dear father, just tell me that you’re proud look at all the places that I’ve been look at all the people that I’ve helped If only mom could see me now Oh father, can you spare me twenty dollars? Living my dream is getting quite expensive Oh sister, don’t worry bout the little things, try not to take your job and like so seriously, seriously Cause little stuff is all it is and nobody’s a perfect kid So let’s celebrate imperfectness and everythings impermanent So every good thing must come to an end Oh every good thing must come to an end Dear world, I’ve been thinking bout the end of times more than I would like to admit Dear mom, it’s not a phase, things have been weird since the day you left

about

This record is dedicated to my mom, Kim Mary Pedriera

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released November 16, 2019

Recorded at Seventh Wave Studio in Palmyra, PA & TriForce Studios in Lancaster, PA. Mixed & mastered by Mike Furst at Triforce Studios. Artwork by Emily Truman/Collage Dropout.

Apes of the State is: April Hartman - acoustic guitar, banjo, vocals;
Dan Ebersole - mandolin, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, omnichord, vocals; Max Scott - bells, vocals;
Mollie Swartz - violin, vocals.

Huge thanks to our friends who contributed their talent and creativity to make this record possible: Cam Lamberson - bass guitar on "Internet Song;" Hannah Pugh - bass guitar on "Fun & Games;" Ian Cornele - drums on "Better Off" & "Fun & Games;" Taylor Kouqj Bull - contrabass on "Moments a Year From Now;" "Toothache," & "Piles," Bass guitar on "Better Off;" & our whole crew who sang "Fight Song"

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