1. |
Snowflake
01:27
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I’m not a special snowflake but if everybody looked and acted this way it would start to lose its charm
There’s a reason that we find our friends in dirty basement punk rock shows and not everyday walking down the sidewalk
So they might call us freaks or say we should act our age
But all my friends are beautiful and I hope they never ever change
And some of us might trade this angst and youth in for a 9 to 5, commute
Start a family, i’m not judging I hope we’re happy
And we will buy our children punk Cds and tell them they can live their dreams
Grow up to be whatever it is that they wanna be
And if anyone calls them freaks we’ll say
That freaks are fucking beautiful and we wouldn’t love them any other way
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2. |
Better Off
01:56
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If I could find the strength to leave my house I might be reassured that the whole world isn’t burning to the ground outside my door
But it’s been so long since anything has gone as expected that i’ve learned to stop having any expectations
And if everything went as expected i wouldn’t be half the person that I am
So I might be better off, that my better half is dead
Part of me wants to believe that everything is exactly as it seems but I’ve found so much comfort in complacency and denying my reality
That I don’t wanna know who the president is
I fell asleep before the votes were counted
I’d rather stay asleep and dream of a world where we don’t need them
Cause we might be better off, we might be better off, we might be better off without them
If I could find the strength to leave my house I might be reassured that the whole world isn’t coming to an end outside my door
But it might be better off, it might be better off, it might be better off if that were the case
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3. |
T-Shirt
01:36
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You broke my heart and all I got
Was this lousy t-shirt and it doesn’t even fit me anymore
Yea i’ve been sorting through my inventory, airing out my dirty laundry and i got too many pieces of you taking up room in my drawers
You broke my heart and all I got
Was this lousy t-shirt of a band that i don’t even care for anymore
Yeah I’ve been looking at old photographs, throwing your stuff in the trash
I think it’s safe to say that you’re the worst outfit that i ever wore
And you don’t have an excuse for how you acted, so I don’t wanna talk about it baby I’m so over it
And everything was great while it lasted, but I don’t wanna hear you out, let’s just end this beautiful disaster, right now
You broke my heart and all I got
Was this lousy t-shirt and it doesn’t even fit me anymore
Yea i’ve been sorting through my inventory, airing out my dirty laundry and i got too many pieces of you taking up room in my drawers
You broke my heart and all I got
Was this lousy t-shirt of a band that i don’t even care for anymore
Yeah I’ve been looking at old photographs, throwing your stuff in the trash
I think it’s safe to say that you’re the worst outfit that i ever wore
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4. |
Internet Song
02:42
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Gather round kids
I'll tell you all some stories of what life was like before the internet
we wandered round
our neighborhoods aimlessly
lighting things on fire and smoking cigarettes
and your dad
probably tried pot
if he said he didn't then he is a liar
he met your mom
when she was passed out on the floor at a party
and that's why they don't let you outside
Oh gather round kids
I'll tell you all some stories of what it was like before Facebook ruined everything
we went to concerts
to watch the performers
not staring at a livestream on our cell phone screens
we did nice
things for eachother
without posting about it on our status
we got in fights
and beat the crap out of eachother
with our fists instead of through nasty comments
Gather round kids
I'll tell you all some stories of what it was like before Instagram ruined pictures
we used cameras
and got the film developed
and people couldn't even hide behind filters
now your dad is looking at porn on Tumblr
and your mom is cheating on your dad through Tindr
swipe right
does anyone remember
the days when we used to like to go outside?
Gather round kids
I'll tell you all some stories of what life was like before the internet
we wandered round
our neighborhoods aimlessly
lighting things on fire and smoking cigarettes
and your dad
took a bunch of acid
met your mom
and they cut all of their classes
went to a party and conceived you on the floor
and that’s why they don't let you outside anymore
yea that’s why we don't let kids outside
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5. |
Moments a Year From Now
02:54
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Sometimes I wonder
What I’m doing at this moment
That I’ll be cringing at a year from now
When I think about it
Like getting tattooed
Or something less permanent
Like the color of my shoes
Or the people I’ve been hanging with
And I might never get over it
I’ll just get so much better at living with my shit
And we don’t forget anything
We just lose the ability to access it in our brains
Sometimes the answers
To everything I’ve ever wondered
About life and death
And what comes after
Come to me as I lie between
Being awake and falling asleep
So if I zone out
While you’re talking to me
It doesn’t mean that I’m not listening
I’m just caught up in a moment
I have a tendency to get lost in the irrelevant details of the story
Like the color that your shoes were the day you walked away from me
And we might never get over it
We’ll just get so much better at living in our shit
And we don’t forget anything
We just lose our desires to relive the memories
Sometimes the answers
To everything I’ve ever wondered
About life and death
And what comes after
Come to me as I fall asleep
But they’re gone by the morning
And I wonder
What I’m doing at this moment
That I’ll be cringing at a year from now
When I think about it
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6. |
Tyrone
03:02
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For the third night this week, I’ve been awoken by dreams
That my ceiling is cracking, and falling on me
Every house holds the story of the things it has seen
If these walls could talk, they’d probably scream
This city was abandoned when they closed the factories
The buildings were left vacant and decaying in the streets
Every town holds the story of what it used to be
If these sidewalks could walk, they’d probably leave
We left it all in god’s hands, all in gods hands
All in god’s hands, all in gods hands, we left it all in gods hands and he failed us again
We left it all in god’s hands, all in gods hands
All in god’s hands, all in gods hands, we left it all in gods hands and he failed us again
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7. |
Toothache
03:37
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You’re so sweet you hurt my teeth when I bite down, bite down
And it’s not right but it hurts so good for right now, right now
But you’re always right so we’re gonna have a fight now, right now
Yeah you’re always RIGHT! Hows it feel to be so right?
Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again
You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this
And I’ll hide my feelings, say I don’t feel anything
But we both know I’m lying, I feel everything at once
Fell so hard must have hit my head on the way down, way down
Cause otherwise there’s not way I’d tolerate all the bullshit that you spew from your mouth
We can both be so mean when we want to so why don’t we let go and let it all out?
I will tear down the walls of this house if I have to and you have the nerve to say that I should be more nice
Well I think you should take your own advice since you’re always RIGHT
And you met your match cause so am I !!
Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again
You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this
And I’ll hide my feelings, say I don’t feel anything
But we both know I’m lying, I feel everything at once
Singer 1: you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again
You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this
Singer 2: You’re like the middle of my back where I can’t reach I can’t scratch you off so you’re always part of me
Won’t you get up off my back, yea you’re always on my...
middle of my back where I can’t reach I can’t scratch you off so you’re always part of me (Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again
You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this)
Just because you’re feeling low, makes you think I’m talking down
Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things
Would you just listen, you never listen when I’m talking now I’m screaming and I’m throwing things again
You know I love you but I hate it when you act like this
And I’ll hide my feelings, say I don’t feel anything
But we both know I’m lying, I feel everything at once, I feel everything at once, I feel everything
You’re so sweet you hurt my teeth
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8. |
Fight Song
01:06
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Sorry that I haven’t called you back
I’ve been busy trying not to lose my shit
Lose my mind
And I’m sorry that I never answer texts
It doesn’t mean that you aren’t still my friend
On my mind
Reaching out for help is so hard
When you’ve relied on yourself for so long
Reaching out for help is so hard
When you’ve relied on yourself for so long
Sorry that I haven’t called you back
I’ve been busy trying not to lose my shit
Lose my mind
And I’m sorry that I never answer texts
It doesn’t mean that you aren’t still my friend
On my mind
*All of my friends are the strongest people I’ve ever met
*All of my friends are the strongest people I’ve ever met
Sorry that I haven’t called you back
I’ve been busy trying not to lose my shit
Lose my mind
And I’m sorry that I never answer texts
It doesn’t mean that you aren’t still my friend
On my mind
*All of my friends are the strongest people I’ve ever met
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9. |
Piles
02:44
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I don’t know too much about art but I think that you are it
I wanna hang you on a wall inside my house and look at you , think about you show you off to all my friends
And I won’t use flash when I take a picture of your face
Cause I don’t want you to fade
I don’t want you to fade
I’ll put you in a frame
Your eyes are green like when the leaves start to dry
I wanna crunch you underneath of my feet, sweep you into piles in my yard to jump inside
And I’ll build a fence around my yard so when the wind comes you don’t blow away
You don’t blow away
Cause I want you to stay
I want you to stay
I stole your t-shirt and it fits me just right, I swear you are my size
I swear you are my size
I wanna keep you on me all the time and when I’m done with you I’ll throw you into a pile on the floor of my bedroom
I wanna wear you like an outfit from my head to my toes
I wanna wake up in your bed
I wanna wake up in your bed
I wanna wake up in your bed and steal your clothes
I wanna wake up in your bed
I wanna wake up in your bed
I wanna wake up in your bed and steal your clothes
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10. |
Erase Your Number
01:18
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So I tried to erase you number, but then I thought and I uncovered
more things that I had to say to you
more ways to tell you, how much I love you and that I miss you
So I tried to erase your number, but then I thought and I uncovered
more things that I need to say I'm sorry for
so I told you that once more
So I tried to erase your number, but I can't help feeling like this isn't over
and the more time and space I have, the more that I think that
you'll probably never answer
So I finally erased your number and it didn't help me feel any better
so while I sit and wait for you to call
I wrote you a song
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11. |
Fun & Games
06:00
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You told me once
That you never say you’re sorry
Cause if you never apologize then it means you're never wrong
Well I’ll tell you what
I see the flaws in your logic
And you're wrong whether you like to admit it or not
Your biggest flaw
Is believing that you have none
We are only human you are not an exception to the rules
And rules were meant to be broken
But I don't see the benefits in leaving things unspoken
So if I had one thing that I could say to you
It would be that I am sorry
But I can only be myself to a fault
And for that I’m not sorry
My biggest flaw
Is believing that I have too many
It's like the weight of the world is crashing down on top of me
I can't breathe
Barely make it out of bed some days
But saying that out loud
Is the first step towards changing
Everything that I hold true and believe in
Is subject to revision faced with new information
Still I cling
To old habits and self loathing
To numb the pain of knowing I’m the source of all my problems and I
Put things off until it’s way too late to fix them
Can’t seem to help it procrastinations so addictive
This was all fun and games until I tore down everything x3
That held me back
To all the kids
Who are beaten down and hopeless
Forced to live in this society that we believe is broken
I hope you know
That you are not alone in this
We’ve built a scene on tolerance and it’s far from perfect
But can we try
To see past all our differences
Even those who we believe are wrong?
To look them in the eyes
And forgive them for their flaws
Cause they are only human after all
And the only thing I don’t want you to do
Is ever apologize for being you
Some things you just can’t change
And I’ve seen too many of my friends
Drink or drug themselves to death
To numb the pain of knowing
we got ourselves into this mess
Where in this day and age we still need things like safe spaces
Because people still can’t tolerate
people who are different
And the way our system works
Is destroying our planet
And the human race might drive itself extinct before we get it
Cause we
Put things off until it’s way too late to fix them
Can’t seem to help it procrastinations so addictive
And it’s easier said than done
That we’ll get it it tomorrow
when tomorrow might never ever come
This is all fun and games until we tear down everything x3
That keeps us all from loving ourselves
This is all fun and games until we tear down everything x3
That holds us back
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12. |
Dear Mom
09:11
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Dear mom, it’s not a phase
I’ve been dressing the same way every day since the 5th grade and I still listen to all of the same punk rock bands that I did back then
Dear mom, I even started my own punk rock band
We spend the summers travelling I think we’re doing okay, we got 20 likes just yesterday on our Facebook page
Dear dad, quit telling me to act my age
To get a job and a house and a 401-k my band is doing great, we made 20 bucks, just yesterday on our Bandcamp page
On days when I wake up like this, reliving every moment, of every wrong thing that I ever did
I tell myself don’t worry bout the little things cause little stuff is all it is and everything’s impermanent
Dear dad, I know that she looked just like me
And I’ve always been so wild and free and fun
That’s why I am your favorite, even though I’ve always been a screw up
Dear sister, I wish you didn’t work so much
I guess that’s how you deal with stuff, we’ve both been through a lot, thanks for always being there for me every time i screw up
Dear world, I don’t wanna die young
I just wanna have fun I think that if all of us could stop arguing about politics and little things we’d solve all of our problems
So I will write a song to sing for all the art school dropout kids whose dreams were bigger than their pockets
And it will go like this, don’t worry bout the little things cause little stuff is all it is I promise, nobody is perfect
Dear boyfriend, you asked me how I got so great and I told you that I stopped being afraid
I wish you’d stop being so afraid
Dear stranger, you asked if I could spare some change, you didn’t look so great, you had death in your face, please forgive me for looking the other way
Dear father, just tell me that you’re proud look at all the places that I’ve been look at all the people that I’ve helped
If only mom could see me now
Oh father, can you spare me twenty dollars? Living my dream is getting quite expensive
Oh sister, don’t worry bout the little things, try not to take your job and like so seriously, seriously
Cause little stuff is all it is and nobody’s a perfect kid
So let’s celebrate imperfectness and everythings impermanent
So every good thing must come to an end
Oh every good thing must come to an end
Dear world, I’ve been thinking bout the end of times more than I would like to admit
Dear mom, it’s not a phase, things have been weird since the day you left
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Apes of the State Lancaster, Pennsylvania
folk punk from Lancaster, PA
for booking email
apesofthestate@gmail.com
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