it's amazing how much has changed, and how much hasn't (demos 2016​-​2017)

by Apes of the State

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Open up spit it out get the trash out of your mouth every time I turn around my dog is eating someone else’s garbage and I’m sure you’re not a bad person you’re just trying to have fun with your friends drinking out of plastic cups with no regrets yeah I’ve seen beauty and the ugliest of places and I seen destruction caused by those with the best of intentions when we’re all just acting out in our self interest what is trash and what is treasure is just a matter of perception so if the sky looks like it’s on fire it’s probably just the air pollution starting to show and if the water looks dark and mysterious it’s probably the oil rigs leaking in the Gulf of Mexico and as I pull that foil wrapper from my doggies mouth I remember all that glitters isn’t gold isn’t gold open up spit it out get the trash out of your mouth every time I turn the TV on there’s someone spitting garbage and I’m sure you’re not a bad person you’re just trying to make the world a better place for yourself for the people that pay you to speak their will yeah I’ve seen beauty in the ugliest of faces and I’ve seen beautiful faces spewing the ugliest of hatred when we’re all just acting out in our own interest what is fact and what is fiction is not a matter of opinion and if one day you have children I hope they never listen to a single thing you say I hope they’re live life their own way that they Make their own decisions and they question every single thing they see I hope that they turn out just like me Cause if the drug companies are poisoning us how dare you vaccinate your kids? and if the GMO’s are poisoning us how dare we ever eat again? The whole world is coming to an end, yeah the whole world is coming to an end So let the games begin the whole world is coming to an end and no one wants to talk about it, no one wants to think about global warming no the whole world is coming to an end, but how about them Kardashians? did you see what she was wearing? and if I could say this properly then I wouldn’t have to sing it and if I can sing this beautifully then I wouldn’t have to scream it but the whole world is coming to an end and no one wants to talk about it no one wants to hear me sing about it anymore
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The hardest thing I did today was get up off the couch the second hardest thing I did was say that out loud I close my eyes and open them and wish that it would change anything but it’s still just the same old same old and the more I watch the television the more I start to hate everything and the more time I spend In this house alone the less I feel like a person we all have our bad days but this is been a few bad months every time I open Facebook up another friend is gone I close my eyes and open them I wish I could forget it Oh I wish they would just get it wish my friends would just get it And if I had one thing that I could say to you it would be that I am sorry but I can only be myself to fall in for that I’m not sorry just because you’ve done some bad things doesn’t make you a bad person you are not the summation of all of your past actions just because some bad things happen doesn’t mean that you deserve them just because you’ve done some bad things doesn’t make you a bad person and if I had one thing that I could say to you it would be that I am sorry but I can only be myself to a fault and for that I’m not sorry
3.
I shot a gun today for the first time I was surprised at how easy it was a man it made me feel so powerful I think I’m ready to start a revolution we got elections coming up I don’t know who I wanna pick a criminal or a racist pig it’s the same damn thing every couple years I think it’s time to overthrow the government so I was getting myself ready for the revolution getting myself ready for the revolution till I remembered I have work in the morning the revolution will have to wait till after 5 PM I guess spent the summer on the road driving through the desert and mountains, sleeping on floors and couches whoever said you needed money to travel didn’t have many friends now I’m back in Pennsylvania sleeping until 11 AM my friends they call me lazy they just don’t get it I’m dreaming up my plan for the revolution so I’ve been getting myself ready for the cold cold winter getting myself ready for the cold cold winter forgot to stop and watch leaves change color watch them all fall down I shot a gun today for the first time I was surprised at how easy it was I think I’m gonna ask for one for Christmas, either that or a new guitar
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I'm Okay 03:50
The house that I grew up in isn’t the house and I remember because the house that I grew up in it used to seem much bigger and the yard I used to get lost in when I was just a little kid became the yard I got drunk in with all my friends before I left for college do you remember that night that Kourtney went and fell out of the tree House and we all thought she was surely dead until she started screaming “I’m Okay!” let’s get the crew together it’ll be just like 2007 again except that I’m not drinking and some of us are missing because hell hath no fury like an entire generation that got strung out on heroin because we lost faith in everything and the friends that I grew up with aren’t the friends that I remember because the friends that I grew up with know that the good old days are over dead and gone The town that I grew up in isn’t the town that I remember because the town that I grew up in it used to thrive and prosper but all the cars and all the houses were bought with money that you never really had so when the market tanked it all got taken from you by the banks and our parents just don’t get it yeah they’re so out of touch cause they grew up in days of picket fences and entry level jobs while all my friends are working overtime in coffee shops and restaurants because our degrees are useless if everybody has one and hell hath no fury like an entire generation that’s stuck working service jobs to pay our student loan debt off and the house that you grew up in isn’ the house that you remember because the house that you grew up in got sold in a foreclosure to the banks Hell have no fury like an entire generation not ashamed of working service jobs to pay our student loan debt off and the world that we grew up and won’t be in the world that we remember because we’re tearing it down brick by brick and creating something different

about

“It’s amazing how much has changed, and how much hasn’t” was my reaction to hearing these songs for the first time in over 3 years; a collection of demos self-recorded with a USB mic between 2016 and 2017. Most of these songs were written immediately after the release of “This City” in 2016 and never made the cut for a proper recording or release for one reason or another. Some parts of these songs ended up taking their final form as different songs. For example, the pre-chorus of “Sorry, Not Sorry” became part of the first verse of “Fun & Games.” Concepts from “I’m Okay” morphed into “Hot Summer Night.” “I Shot a Gun Today,” written shortly before the 2016 election, is somehow more relevant today than ever. Some of these songs, or parts, might take other forms in future releases.

Within me exists a constant battle between cringing at my past self and looking upon it with nostalgia and admiration. Over the years I’ve become a bit of a perfectionist when it comes to releasing music. I don’t like to release songs unless they are properly recorded and in their “final form.” For me, this is an exercise in saying “fuck it.” I hope you enjoy it !

Dan mixed these but don't tell him I told y'all that - he is embarassed about it because there was only so much he could do to help make these sound listenable. They were recorded by be on a Blue USB mic and I had no idea what I was doing. They were never meant to be something that would be released BUT upon hearing them I thought the world might need some songs like this right now to help us through these weird times. And we gotta raise some funds cause we need to do some work on our house. You know the line in "Tyrone" about the ceiling cracking and falling? Yeah, we need a new roof.

Stay safe & be well -Apes.

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released October 2, 2020

Cover art - photo by Dan, on our first big tour Summer 2016. and illustration by Christine Zito (@scum_shine)

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